He just loves to feature on the ‘gram 🐶 Isn’t it so lovely to have some bright and sunny mornings, apposed to those drizzly ones! 
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It’s monday again and boy was my weekend a mixed one. Rhodie had a walk and a groom on Saturday. We also spent a solid 3 hours on sorting out our number plates being stolen! Not what we wanted to be doing. Sunday we managed to get our wardrobes delivered and I am over the moon to finally have hanging space and some organisation going on upstairs. But that didn’t come without its troubles, including ripping two thirds of my nail off whilst trying to lift a heavy box. I’m now unable to finish any of the building and unfortunately that falls down to my husband 🙈
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How was your weekend? As eventful as mine turned out to be? 
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Evening in with my boys 🥰 Takeaway on order, fl Evening in with my boys 🥰 Takeaway on order, fluffy blanket layers and candles on. I do love a Friday night ✨How are you kicking off the weekend?
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We have too many styling pieces for the little sur We have too many styling pieces for the little surfaces we currently have 😂🙈 This is one of the very first purchases we made for the new house - a gorgeous industrial shelving unit. It works soooo well with our already bought living room furniture and will look amazing once we paint 🙌🏻 Do you think that’s my favourite saying, because that’s all I keep saying 😂 Done with these bland white walls! 
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The same but different 🏡 Still trying to find p The same but different 🏡 Still trying to find places for everything. It’s just a heck of a lot of shuffling when moving isn’t it🌿 

Still very much in love with our rustic dining table from next as we were when we bought it a couple of years ago! And thankfully we managed to get 4 more matching chairs 2 years later, since we no longer have our booth! Perfectly compliments our new kitchen diner! I keep saying it, but we just need colour now! 
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No transformation Tuesday here this week, but hope No transformation Tuesday here this week, but hopefully next!🤞 We still have a 5 day wait until our wardrobes are delivered and that’s our biggest set back at the mo. Both bedroom 2 & 3 are full of clothes and unpacked boxes 📦 As daft as it may sound, getting these new wardrobes should be a real relief and the turning point for our upstairs! 
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Aside from that, we still have lots of pieces to shop for our lounge and bedroom! If only that’s what I could do all day rather than work, ay! Where’s your favourite place to shop furniture? I’d love to hear your recommendations 🙌🏻
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It’s a good morning Monday from me 🌊 The beau It’s a good morning Monday from me 🌊 The beautiful Sunday sunshine certainly made up for the drizzle we had on Saturday. We soaked up the sunshine and of course the sea breeze, trying to get out of the house, within reason ofcourse. We strolled up and down the seafront several times yesterday and Rhodie was well and truly knackered after. 
I hope you all had a lovely weekend, and a even better week. I myself am so excited for next weekend as it means we finally get our bedroom furniture, including the hotly anticipated wardrobes 🙌🏻
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Transformation Tuesday #2 in our new home 🌿 The Transformation Tuesday #2 in our new home 🌿 The garden! 
Thankfully we managed to get it done pretty quickly much to our delight. Having a puppy and 20 odd patio slabs for him to do his business on got pretty tedious pretty quickly! 
Now to start the garden planning - I’m actually looking forward to getting green fingered this spring! 👩‍🌾
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How much coffee is too much coffee for a Monday?☕️ Asking for a friend 🙈 Today we get our garden turfed and boy am I excited to see green outside our patio doors and a patio that isn’t littered with dog poo or wee! 
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Frosty walkies ❄️🧣Brrrr it’s bloody cold Frosty walkies ❄️🧣Brrrr it’s bloody cold out there. Minus 1 on our afternoon walk! But Rhodie LOVED it! Met lots of pooches and very much knackered from tumbling in the frost! 
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WFH Lunch breaks consist of carpet reads and coffe WFH Lunch breaks consist of carpet reads and coffee 📚 Determined to smash my 2021 reading target and where better to start than with The Killer Across the Table. What you starting your 2021 reading with? 
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Charlotte – Nichole

20/05/2017 Lifestyle

Admitting Anxiety

This is a tough one. This is something I never thought I had.

Yes I have a nervous deposition for job interviews, meeting new people, going to new places, but it’s now that I finally realise this is for real. This isn’t something everyone suffers from. This isn’t ‘normal’.
It’s not ‘normal’ to feel sick in the pit of your stomach to get up and just go to work.

It’s not ‘normal’ to suffer from stomach aches and pain because you are so anxious of upcoming pressure.

It’s not ‘normal’ to have so much self doubt that you feel like nothing is possible and you will fail at whatever you try and achieve. Despite knowing, from your heart that you are capable of whatever you set your mind to.

It’s not ‘normal’ to feel like you’re pissing everyone off with your mood swings, lack of confidence and sadness because you just aren’t feeling happy right now.

It’s not ‘normal’ to feel stupid because you think you’re being silly and over the top, but just can’t shake the doubt nor talk yourself round to feeling better.

But it’s started to be my normal.

I have never felt so alone, scared, worried, panicked, doubtful, sick, tired and unsure in all my life. It’s through no fault of my own, nor those around me. I receive so much support and advice from friends, family and my fiancee, which works for some time whilst I’m around the encouragement. But as soon as I’m alone and left with my own thoughts, It goes a little AWOL and I’m right back where I started.

It was only last weekend, when I had a really hard decision to make, I was feeling down, upset, panicky and doubtful I really started to see the true effects of anxiety. For the first time, I couldn’t make a decision for myself that I felt confident in. I was completely doubting my own ability and decision I needed to make for myself, running around in circles on what I should or should not do.

The knock on effect resulted in a catastrophic amount of emotions, tears and worry.

Whilst researching for mental health awareness week, planning to do a blog post, I started to read up on the infamous anxiety effects and treatments. I started mentally ticking of most if not all the symptoms, relating to the feelings I was getting more frequent than before. That’s when it became clear its not ‘normal’, to feel the way I had been feeling. I had been suffering for quiet some time, and that made me more sad. How did I not know this was effecting aspects of my life resulting in unhappiness and borderline depression.

There are a lot of things to be happy about in my life, and I feel ever so silly and over dramatic to be claiming I’m so unhappy that I am suffering from anxiety and possibly depression.

The first thing I have been wanting to do is let someone in to how I am feeling. Make people aware. I am so conscious of shutting myself off and ultimately climbing into a imaginary shell. I do not want this to be a ongoing, frequent occurrence for me. I do not want to be feeling like this, or worse for long periods of time.

I am aware what has put me here, what has made me feel like this. I am changing aspects that should eradicate and ultimately put me on the straight and narrow to feeling happy, confident and content.

The first progress of it all has been this post! Opening up to more than just my poor fiancee who has to cope with my tears and stress every other day. Whilst I haven’t shed any light on tips and advice in this post, I just hope some know they are not alone. There are many of us out there battling self doubt, stress, worry, panic, sadness and ultimately anxiety.

Remember – you have a 100% track record of making it through the day! 

I start my first day at a new job Monday. I will do well. I will be fine. I am capable. 


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